Taking that dreaded step

I have gone and dunnit.
After waiting for over 2 weeks, I've decided to make the unwilling call to the company that has put me through 3 rounds of interview.
I made it a point to ring the first interviewer, whom friends say would usually be the immediate boss if I were hired (and they were right).
I said I thought I should check back about the outcome of the decision, since it has been over 2 weeks now.
I was told by the first interviewer that even he himself has yet to receive the official announcement of the outcome for the various positions other than the one I applied for.
And that the HR was supposed to make the official announcement.
This means he knows the outcome, except he can't disclose anything yet.
I suddenly felt silly, and said I was sorry to bother him.
He was kind enough to say in a friendly manner that it was ok.
And he called me by my first name!

I informed a friend about the entire phone exchange - the one who used to work there but not any more.
He said it definitely sounded positive.
Right now, how I wish I have his confidence!
Ha.

In the meantime, I am recuperating from the ordeal my last job has put me through.
I am still suffering from insomnia, and even if I managed to get some sleep, I would wake up thinking I have a busy day ahead of me.
This last job has seemingly driven me a little bit potty.
I can't sit still nor stand still, and I've been trying to find things to do, and am very unsettled somehow.
In short, I can't - for the life of me - relax!

Mom suggested I should got to Malaysia with her this Sat to Mon.
This trip is to see my uncle who is recovering from pneumonia.
I declined.
It's not that I don't care about my uncle.
I do, and have been getting daily updates about his condition.
It's just that considering I haven't been to see my maternal relatives more than 2 years ago, I anticipate my going will be another stressful time for me.
Everyone will be fussing over me, wanting to chat with me, and finding out the latest news with me.
Not to mention more insomnia being away from home, plus all the stress of packing and unpacking just for the 2-odd days.
Anyway, I have to be physically around in case I get called up for yet another interview.

Meanwhile, trying to chill out is the best thing I should do right now...